That question by itself pretty much sums up my life lately in so many ways. As many of you know we are seeking God's direction as a family concerning full-time ministry in a church. God allowed a recent door of opportunity for us to be closed and we were left with that very question. The short answer is to see what else is out there, but with that comes the fear/concern that "Does this church fit with us in this or that area?", "Where will we have to move to?", "What type of ministry will He lead us to?"
Well, my current job sort of took a twist that, at first, I didn't like, but God has really used for me right now. I have been assigned a very mind-numbing task that is repetative, boring and solitary. I have been able to use my iPod and listen to music which my normal tasks do not allow. So, yesterday I just started the music and let it go. Normally I let is shuffle, but I didn't this time. After lunch sometime it made it to an artist named John Waller. He is relatively new, but his music has really been encouraging to me.
As I was pondering the above questions the song came on "While I'm Waiting." Here are some of the lyrics.
I'm waiting,
I'm waiting on You, Lord, And I'm hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord, Though it is painful
But, Patiently, I will wait
I WILL MOVE AHEAD, BOLD AND CONFIDENT
TAKING EVERY STEP IN OBEDIENCE
WHILE I'M WAITING, I WILL SERVE YO
WHILE I'M WAITING, I WILL WORSHIP
WHILE I'M WAITING, I WILL NOT FAINT
I WILL BE RUNNING THE RACE
That perfectly fits up my thinking. We are waiting. Many times we feel stuck in a job that I don't like and feel God making us discontent about it, but having no way out yet. On the other hand our response needs to be and has been - serve and worship. We are going to continue to be faithful to all that he has currently called us to do until HE calls us elsewhere. As Pastor has said so often lately, we don't want to rush ahead or fall behind. We want to take each step in obedience.
The very next song on that John Waller CD is "Something Big"
I wanna see something I've not seen
Something so big
I wanna be a part of something great,
Greater than me
It's time to dream big dreams
To see Your vision become reality
'Cause it's for You, by You, those love you want to do
SOMETHING SO BIG
IT'S DESTINED TO FAIL WITHOUT YOU, LORD
IT'S GONNA FAIL WITHOUT YOU, LORD
SOMETHING SO GREAT
IT TAKES A MIRACLE TO DO
WE, YOUR CHILDREN
WANNA DO SOMETHING SO BIG FOR YOU.
I know that God smiled when He allowed those two songs to go together on that CD knowing that I would need them yesterday. That song is my prayer, not because of wanting to be a part of something big for recognition. I want God to be able to use me for something great because I was fearless enough to just trust Him with everything and let Him use me.
So.. now what? Wanna join me and let God do something great...and willing just to be faithful while we wait?
